It's about time

 So I'm back online blogging about the things that matter to me, trying to capture a piece of our busy life so one day I can look back and sigh, remembering the little things that seem to slip by in the daily grind. I was really inspired three days ago, and then the desire just sort of slipped away (again) or was that because  I became busy being a taxi driver, chef, mediator, nurse, therapist, and Mom to five busy kids that I  just never found the time?
 I LOVE to read blogs, and have gained so much insight from the ones I’ve read over the years, or even a good daily laugh that is often needed when I'm stressed.

My initial point of this blog (2 years ago) was an outlet while my husband was deployed, and a way to keep in contact with family. Unfortunately things in my life at that time became so chaotic not just with being a single mom of five while hubby dearest was deployed, but with my grandmother’s chronic illness, the drastic move while hubby was deployed, dealing with less than understanding individuals that were related, and worrying myself sick about the safety of my husband, and eventually the dramatic change in my life with the death of my grandma, then dealing with my wonderful Mr. Amazing, who came home from the land of hell Iraq, followed the sudden death of a young mother & friend leaving behind a 8 month old blessing, then when things seemed that they couldn’t get much worse, we were handed the unexpected death of my uncle who was on a fishing trip alone went missing & his body wasn’t found until 17 days later. All of it just became too much, seemed to leave me in a state of despair with nothing positive to even blog about and I shyed away from putting it "out there". I look back over the few postings I did manage to make public with remorse because I wish I had wrote more, even if only for myself. I wish I had blogged more about the times I spent with my grandma before she passed away. Reading the words from the days I spent with her are like a moment of time captured forever. Oh how I wish I had not been so reserved, the lessons I could have reminded myself of, the laughs I would have captured in print (well sort of), and the love I could have forever revisited whenever I wanted.



So because of the regrets of not being the open, loving person I really am, I'm back to blogging. I don't particularly believe I will post any earth shattering solution to a problem, or start the latest internet craze from one of my ideas, or even be much above normal family life but that's fine by me. The blogs I've enjoyed most are from friends I know (in real life even) and from families who deal with the same struggle, laughs, and shared interests that I do.

So sit back and read at your own will, I will take a ride on the blogging wagon again, and let's see how far the road takes me this time!

Not Me Monday ( Let the therapy begin)

 

While searching for Inspiration to begin blogging again I came across a blogger who's idea will certainly bring a whole new meaning to my monday blogs. ( and i might even get some free therapy from this- seriously,what's not to like?)

• I did not go one more week not finding a family doctor for us since our move 4 months ago.  I am way more attentive to priorities and prepared than that. Of course because I am so much better at organizing priorities, I made an appointment at our new family doctor and I did not spend 12 hours at the hospital ER WAITING to be seen on Saturday night.
• Most certainly this was trip to the ER was for an emergency and not for something could have been handled at the "found" doctor during the week before it became a pressing issue.
• I did not sleep in on Sunday morning after only what would have been 3 hours of sleep from coming home from the ER and dressed the kids for church, so that we could finally find a new church home since the move (4 months ago)
• I did not find excuses for the last 4 months on why we haven't made it to one church service since our move.
• I did not spend all day Sunday holding my sweet little Zoey Bear like a newborn (&not a puppy) swaddled close to my chest, completely wrapped in a silky baby blanket, NO not me.
• I did not allow my five children to stay awake on Sunday night  until  11 pm (a school night) to finish watching a movie. I promised 3 days ago they could watch Transformers 2 as a family. I did not play Café world on facebook during the family movie night because I was going through internet game withdrawals. No not me I love to cuddle among the kiddos, eat popcorn and enjoy family time.
  
  
   And because this has been weighing on me I am taking this time to do a back dated not me monday- today :)
  
• I did not let my heart over take my rational reasoning and bring home the cutest blonde Pekingese puppy 4 weeks ago. (yes Zoey Bear is the cute little dog looking at our pet turtle "Tootles" in blog title picture ) See she's so cute right?
• I've not felt guilty at all, that's why I did not wait to post pictures of our beautiful sweet puppy who adores Lexie on face book for my family to see until tomorrow.
• I did not feel guilty about having Zoey Bear in the house even though only 5 months ago we gave my mom our wonderful dog Molly(our basset/daschund mix) whom Lexie (our Boston terrier) would not get along with. No I would never bring more chaos to the house.
•  I did not feel guilty when I looked into dog training for both Lexie and Zoey Bear so that we don't have a repeat issue with Lexie not tolerating a new buddy. I did not feel incredibly guilty because we never did this when we promised to give Molly a forever home.
• I did not feel even worse because I know the only reason we didn't back then was because we could not afford another dog much less training.
• Last but not least I did not allow my teenage & pre teen kids to watch a scary movie while i typed this blog because I am way more concerned about how those movies affect them than I would be about having time alone to just blog :)

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.